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35 They were desirous to be baptized as a witness and a testimony that they were willing to serve God with all their hearts; Mosiah 21:35

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To provide a loving environment that is centered around God and His commandments while effectively teaching my children to love, honor, and respect all Men no matter the race, creed, or background.

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Wednesday, September 14, 2016

A true hope

Two years ago, I met someone who changed my life.  If you have known me for an extended period of time (or really any amount of time, let's face it) you know that I have a temper.  I do not disguise my attitude.  If I do not like something, more than likely, you know it.  I do NOT like this about myself.  I have worked endlessly on my temper.  I know too many people that have been on the other side of it and it is not a pleasant experience.  
When I had Edward, seven and half years ago, my patience was tested.  EVERY SINGLE DAY! I tried taking deep breaths, counting to ten, and leaving the situation.  It was all a band aid.  The real problem lies deep inside my soul.  I used to blame it on my red hair or my parents or my firery attitude.  All not true.  The issue is chemical.  Once I came to terms with the real problem, I could actually work on fixing it.
My entire family has issues with controlling their tempers.  I used to think I was the mild "Skousen" until I threw a bat at my grandpa.  AH!  Seriously, Julie.  Get it together.  Well, two years ago, by chance, I met someone who introduced me to a product called True Hope.  They offer products for ADHD, Autism, and Depression. They also offer personal counseling to all who take the product.  It has been a game changer for me.  No, I don't sell it.  Nor do I get paid for mentioning it.  True hope is a supplement for brain health.  I first started giving it to Nolen to help with his autism symptoms.  Then I started giving it to Edward when he started having a hard time at school.  I saw how drastically it changed their lives so I had to try it.  
I have never felt better.  Today, as a testament to my true change, Edward tried to test my patience.  He was suddenly upset about accidently hitting Nolen in the eye with his blanket.  He was going to run away.  I was talking to him nicely and he said, "I need mean Mom. I don't listen unless you are mean Mom."  I would have, two years ago, just yelled at him uncontrollably.  NOT TODAY!  I growled with a silly low voice and said, "Mean Mom is here to tickle you.  Seems like you need more love in your life."  Then he exploded with anger.  I picked him up to simulate the explosion and crashed him to the ground.  Then I tickled him.  We both began laughing.  I love this kid.  I can't react.  It's my job as a mom to keep my cool and SHOW him how to act in a situation that isn't ideal.  
I know I have a long way to go but the real signs of love and the type of mom I want to be are coming out.  I can control myself.  I am in control.  For the first time in my life, I have the control over my emotions.  Not the other way around. 

Here's a cute little video made about lizards and snakes.  Enjoy your Wednesday!


Aliisa said...

Cute. I think you are pretty amazing!

Aliisa said...

Cute. I think you are pretty amazing!