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35 They were desirous to be baptized as a witness and a testimony that they were willing to serve God with all their hearts; Mosiah 21:35

"Make sure they remember joy yesterday, experience joy today, and anticipate joy tomorrow."

Motherhood Mission Statement

To provide a loving environment that is centered around God and His commandments while effectively teaching my children to love, honor, and respect all Men no matter the race, creed, or background.

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Friday, July 26, 2013

So, yeah.

Sometimes, being a Mom is just hard.  I feel like I am tested at every single corner.  Yesterday, I had to have a minor surgery to cut out some cancer cells.  It really wasn't that painful; however, the side effects of anesthesia are always rough.  I had a major headache all day and was groggy.  Anyhow, I had to stop at the store to buy milk for Nolen because my preparation didn't include making sure I had enough goats milk for him.  I did; however, clean the entire house, mow the lawn, do the laundry, and prepare food.  So I had to go to the store... with both boys... unprepared.
If I take Nolen to the store, I usually run in and grab what I need so that our trip is painless and fast. This did not happen yesterday.  I grabbed my essential items fast but then realized I needed some more taurine (the vitamin that helps Nolen relax and sleep). 

As a side note, (and don't tell Nolen) he has been sleeping through the night 3 out of 7 nights a week!

So, as I remembered I only had one left at home, I decided to search the store for some.  The vitamins, as I found out, are organized in alphabetical order according to what purpose they serve.  Taurine is an non-essential amino acid.  Starts with A, so I headed to the very first row of the vitamins.  Not there.  I started walking down every isle looking for the right section.  Nolen had it.  He couldn't take another moment of being in the store.  He started screaming.  Loud.  I tried to talk him down, but it didn't work. We got a few funny looks, as to be expected, and I hurriedly turned the corner down the very last vitamin isle.  In this row was an older woman.  She looked annoyed.  I could tell she was annoyed with me.  I told Nolen, but was mostly speaking to the woman, that I just needed to find this one last thing and we would leave.  I walked past her and found what I was looking for!  It wasn't fast enough.  This lady said, "SHUT UP!", right to my son.  To my sweet little boy who is sensitive to being yelled at and who doesn't understand the meaning of the word because I DON'T USE IT!  With this, his tears spilled over his chubby little cheeks.  It was so sad.  I was so stunned.  I grabbed my very last item and practically ran out of the store. 

Nolen is 2.  TWO! He is TWO! Not only is he 2, but he has autism.  I don't expect everyone to know about his autism, but it was pretty obvious he was a little tiny toddler.  Just an innocent little boy who didn't want to be in the vitamin isle at Natural Grocers.  I can't blame him.  I didn't want to be there either.  I wanted to be in my bed nursing my major anesthesia headache. 

I suppose I am learning to become more tolerant of other people with these little life lessons.  Maybe her husband just died.  Maybe she had a headache.  Maybe she this, or that, or something worse.  Who knows.  But what I do know is that somehow, her day was worse than mine and that is tough because I had a pretty bad day.  My heart goes out to her.

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

Hotwheels 3 and a small update

I promise, we are doing more than making Hot Wheels videos.  Edward loves making these videos and asks to make them at least 10 times a day.  I have WAY more on my camera but have chosen to put together 3, so far. 
Nolen has ABA therapy every single day.  That seems to take up the bulk of our time, well that and nap time.  I have been trying to get a lot of things done around the house; for example, taking my 5th trip to Goodwill and dropping off the excess stuff we seem to have picked up this year.  I still have two more closets to go through and I should be done.
I was hoping Edward would get in to pre-school here at his Elementary but he didn't.  That is actually OK with me because I really want to home school.  I just need to figure out what I wan to do.  Edward still LOVES to play, so school is going to be a big deal for him.  It may even warrant a few tantrums.
Stephen is working and sleeping and reading and playing games.  Not much has changed there.  Me? Oh, yeah, I am having surgery this Thursday to remove some pre-cancer on my Cervix. Consider this your reminder to see your GYNO.  This has been going on for a year and has caused me great stress.  It is good to know that is all should be over on Thursday.
Happy Summer to all!  

Wednesday, July 17, 2013


Today has been long and tedious. It isn't over yet. I am sitting in a place I NEVER thought I would be, my own personal nightmare. I hope it ends today. I spent the morning and afternoon at the hospital with Nolen trying to get an MRI done. It didn't happen. This day is never ending. 

Sunday, July 14, 2013

Nolen's Second Year. A look at Regressive Autism.

This video is 50 minutes long, so don't feel like you have to watch everything.  To see Nolen regress skip ahead 30 minutes.
Also, know that I love my son, deeply.  My pain is physically visible in every way.  Nolen is still amazing just the way he is.  He was sent to me for a purpose and I made this video to share with other Mom's who may be going through the same thing and for others to understand Autism.
Nolen was a normal until around 22 months; however, by then he had visibly regressed.

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Nolen's First Year

I wanted to put together a video that showed Nolen as a himself.  A typical developing infant.  He has great eye contact and hits every single milestone right on time or even ahead of most infants his age.  Nolen was diagnosed with Autism February 2013.  This has been the most heart breaking thing for me as a parent.  Living through this has been extremely challenging. 
This is one way I have found to cope. 
Enjoy the day to day little things that bring happiness in my life.
As a note, this is a LONG video.  I put together many images of his first year and ALL of the videos I took before he turned 1.  This is my place to document regressive autism.

Edward's First Hot Wheels video

Edward loves watching YOUTUBE videos about hotwheels cars, so we decided to make one to add to the hundreds of videos about hotwheels.

Thursday, July 4, 2013


We opened an Etsy account!  My Mom is making and selling scarves to benefit Nolen's autism treatments. Please check it out and buy one.  All proceeds benefit little Nolen.  GO HERE to buy.

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