Easter was beautiful this year. Nolen played in the orchestra that accompanied the choir! My dream come true! I finally got to sing with one of my boys playing for me! It was awesome. My mom is still not doing well. She is down to 81 pounds. I am starting to think she won’t be here for much longer. It is hard to watch her decline for months now. The boys hunted eggs at my parents house and we may have outgrown the traditional egg hunt.
Edward has been struggling with some difficult teen issues these last few months and it all finally came out this month. It is very popular to change your gender and identity right now. Many of Edward’s friends are dabbling in changing their names, gender, and species. It is absolutely confusing to be a human right now. I am walking through this crisis with Edward. It is a crises. It is an epidemic of lost children who no longer believe they are children of God. It is scary but I am here to be Edward’s guide through these turbulent times. We are tackling this issue together. Nolen cut his hair a few weeks ago and I asked Edward if he wanted to cut his hair to change part of his identity. He agreed. He looks so handsome to me.
From audition to closing night, it has been three full months of rehearsing and late nights. I am so glad I was a part of this show. It was very fun to be Cinderella's mother, granny, the harp, and the giant. These four roles were challenging each in their own way. I’m not sure I would do it again, knowing what I know now, but it has been an adventurous learning experience to say the least. I loved the cast and crew. It was so fun getting to know new faces.
This weekend, Melanie Iverson and Anders came for a visit. I am so glad I got to hang out with them for the weekend. It made closing weekend so much fun. Nolen and Anders played Roblox, went to the jump park, and had a blast all weekend.
These last 18 years have been a wild ride. I wouldn’t have it any other way. The last few days have been extremely difficult. Stephen has had some unforeseen health challenges and Edward is struggling with knowing who he is in this world. I have been more stressed than I can exclaim, and being a part of this show has made it even more difficult; however, we have no choice but to move forward together as a family. We love each other, but more than that, we are here for each other. We care about each other and support each other. I know I am loved, deeply. I love my family with every single fiber of my being. I want to fight the troubles of the world with them. I want to walk through the fire with them as we battle the trials of life. Although, the challenges of this year couldn’t have been avoided, I’m glad we have each other more now than ever.
We went to church today, then to my show, and then to dinner at Los Poblanos Farm for dinner. I love these boys!
Nolen officially decided to get ride of his Mohawk! He has sported the Mohawk for the last seven years. It very much became a part of his identity. He was nervous to show anyone that he changed his hair, so he wore a hoody to school and to track until he finally decided other people’s opinion didn’t matter too much. I think he looks handsome either way.
