It's official: 2019 is not my year.
I have bad luck.
This is true.
I have worked hard to change my luck over the last 20 years; however, this year it all caught up to me. I just haven't been thinking clearly at all this year.
I have recently made some mistakes when paying my bills. I just can't get it right. I am not paying attention. I am trying to do too many things at once and I am doing non of them well.
I hate having too many things on my plate because I can't seem to get them done correctly. I reset my life in September but it has still been a rocky road.
We bought a new car. I had to make the first payment October 15th. I thought I did. Turns out, I didn't. I used an account we closed at the beginning of the year to make the payment. SO, I went on to make the payment again. I transferred the money from the wrong account. Now we don't have any money in our joint account.
I am unsure what I am doing but I just can't get anything quite right. I feel like quitting today. I totally blew up at Stephen two nights ago. I felt like he intentionally ignored me, but he didn't. He was just living his normal life and I took it personally. I wish I could get it together. I don't know if this all has to do with this major hormone switch I am going through this year but I am going to blame it all on that event.
I am finally losing the weight I gained but it has been a serious battle.
This isn't the worst year of my life, but this has been a tough year. I am hoping 2020 will just be a regular year. We found out when our heater broke last March that they didn't replace the gas valve properly so we have to have it replaced AGAIN for another $380 dollars! Yeah, you heard me correctly!
One step at a time. I take this life one step at a time. I just keep marching forward hoping that the next step I take isn't in a trap. AND if it is a trap I have the tools to dig myself out. Ugh.
I just wanted to record this mess so that when I have good times I will seriously rejoice.
This is me, pushing the reset button AGAIN!